Tag: mentalhealth

  • Wait i have to check something!

    Day goes by, its been a week now and still im on the era of something that i dont know exactly, everything pop up on my mind with the idea of that im going to die, so i go to Google and try to search something what I feel, it was weird for me, that im getting this answers from internet anxious, mental health issues , heart problem acidity, stomach desease, high blood pressure and so on, i couldnt find exactly what i need to know, am i stilll on denial ?? i feel more like if as I stood in the crowded room, my heart began to pound in my chest like a drumbeat. My palms grew sweaty, and my mind started racing with worst-case scenarios. Every noise seemed distorted, every glance felt like hazy. I felt like I was drowning in a sea of expectations, unable to catch my breath. My thoughts swirled with what-ifs and maybes, each one fueling the growing sense of unease in my stomach. I felt like I was walking on thin ice, waiting for it to crack beneath me.

    My mind was a whirlwind of worries, each one tangling with the next like a knot that refused to unravel. Every step felt like a weight was pressing down on me, making my legs heavy and uncoordinated. My breath came in short gasps, as if the air itself was thick and hard to grasp.

    The world around me seemed to blur, and all I could focus on was the dread that had taken up residence in my chest. It was like being trapped in a never-ending loop of fear, with no escape in sight. i dont know when it will end this feeling, I am always tired and dont want to go out, feel so down and alone. so when??

  • and i didnt go to work after what happened

    i dont want to move out from my bed , i feel anxious and afraid to move. my day is wasted. i woke up late like 11 am, but didnt want to go out of it, i feel tired already but its just the beginning of the day,i dont want to do anything, watching the ceiling, my cat is curling his body on me, checking me if im going to get up or no,, its time for his food, but i dont want to stand.

    so what i did next is, i curled myself again on the blanket and continues sleep, but i couldnt sleep back, thinking what and why it happened, i keep rolling on my bed , and then i started to check my phone (thats the bad habit)