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  • Wait i have to check something!

    Day goes by, its been a week now and still im on the era of something that i dont know exactly, everything pop up on my mind with the idea of that im going to die, so i go to Google and try to search something what I feel, it was weird for me, that im getting this answers from internet anxious, mental health issues , heart problem acidity, stomach desease, high blood pressure and so on, i couldnt find exactly what i need to know, am i stilll on denial ?? i feel more like if as I stood in the crowded room, my heart began to pound in my chest like a drumbeat. My palms grew sweaty, and my mind started racing with worst-case scenarios. Every noise seemed distorted, every glance felt like hazy. I felt like I was drowning in a sea of expectations, unable to catch my breath. My thoughts swirled with what-ifs and maybes, each one fueling the growing sense of unease in my stomach. I felt like I was walking on thin ice, waiting for it to crack beneath me.

    My mind was a whirlwind of worries, each one tangling with the next like a knot that refused to unravel. Every step felt like a weight was pressing down on me, making my legs heavy and uncoordinated. My breath came in short gasps, as if the air itself was thick and hard to grasp.

    The world around me seemed to blur, and all I could focus on was the dread that had taken up residence in my chest. It was like being trapped in a never-ending loop of fear, with no escape in sight. i dont know when it will end this feeling, I am always tired and dont want to go out, feel so down and alone. so when??

  • Im just on my bed the whole day ….

    So what happened on my first panic attacked ? I felt exhausted, I felt crazy ? I felt unnatural , I felt im going to die, I felt so un usual things. I started to get afraid everytime I go out of our house, im afraid to expose myself to somewhere hot, I felt im going to faint.
    “My first panic attack was like nothing I’d ever experienced before. It hit me without warning, like a tidal wave of fear and anxiety. I was at my safe place (home) , and suddenly my heart started racing, my breath caught in my throat, and my body felt like it was trembling apart.

    “I felt like I was losing control, like I was going to pass out or worse. My mind was racing with worst-case scenarios, and I couldn’t shake the feeling of impending doom. It was like my body had switched to autopilot, and I was powerless to stop it.

    “The attack lasted 5 mins , and when it finally subsided, I was left feeling shaken, exhausted, and confused. It took me a while to process what had happened and to understand that I wasn’t alone.

    Im just lying on the bed the whole day thinking why it happened.i want to seek some advice but where to go, to whom should I ask, and how can I explain this, Im afraid that they will think bad to me, think Im just crazy

  • and i didnt go to work after what happened

    i dont want to move out from my bed , i feel anxious and afraid to move. my day is wasted. i woke up late like 11 am, but didnt want to go out of it, i feel tired already but its just the beginning of the day,i dont want to do anything, watching the ceiling, my cat is curling his body on me, checking me if im going to get up or no,, its time for his food, but i dont want to stand.

    so what i did next is, i curled myself again on the blanket and continues sleep, but i couldnt sleep back, thinking what and why it happened, i keep rolling on my bed , and then i started to check my phone (thats the bad habit)

  • My first panic attacked, and then what ?

    Its nearly  a year since I got my first panic attack. It happened last May 2024. It’s a normal day, came from work Im putting laundry on the washing machine, then suddenly my heart is beating so fast, so fast,,, u feel that heartbeat, and I started to feel hot on the back of my ear. That I don’t know why ? .i tried to calm down, but I can’t .i start to drink water because I feel that I cannot breath, Im gasping air, I sit down and trying to figure out what’s happening,.im checking things inside the house , the color , the smell, feeling that im not into myself and crazy. After a 2 minutes of checking myself, I feel that I cannot breath at all real, I started to call my husband and telling what’s happening, I said I can’t breath, I will call the ambulance (first time in my life to call) he said call the ambulance and he will come home.i called the ambulance told my story an they came after just 3 minutes. Yes, its fast !! I open our door , im scared that they could not open it, they found me sitting on the chair and holding my chest, they checked my vital stats, heartbeat,, pulse, oxygen, all are normal (im happy) . they said all are normal, the heartbeat seems high because you panicking, but it will go down, they thought I have a kid inside our house, because the tv is open and im watching cartoons (Tom Sawyer) AC is full high, electric fan is on too .(because I feel hot) . the nurse told me,

    “You may have a panic attack!!! (I don’t know).. my husband came after 20 minutes, looking at me what happened. I said I don’t know too, after that 10-20 minutes scenario I feel so tired that I just want to lay down in bed. And that is my first panic attack.

    My heart is racing , pounding in my chest so hard it feels like it’s going to burst out. My breaths are shallow and rapid, but I feel like I’m suffocating. My mind is spinning with worst-case scenarios, and my body feels like it’s on fire. I’m lightheaded and dizzy, like I’m going to pass out. Every muscle is tense, and I feel like I’m trapped with no escape. The world around me feels distorted, like I’m living in a nightmare. I’m overwhelmed, scared, and completely out of control.”

  • I was in denial !!!!

    “I think I was in denial about my first panic attack because it was such a shocking and unfamiliar experience. Part of me didn’t want to believe it was real—it felt safer to brush it off as something else, like being overly stressed or tired. Admitting it was a panic attack made it feel more serious, and I guess I wasn’t ready to face that at the time.”

    By framing it this way, you’re recognizing your feelings and why you reacted that way, without being too hard on yourself. Does this feel like it captures how you’d like to express it? I’m here to help refine your thoughts further if needed. and i was in denial

  • lets navigate our storm,but lets talk

    Anxiety is like an uninvited guest that overstays its welcome. It creeps in, whispering doubts and fears, turning the simplest tasks into mountains that feel impossible to climb. But here’s the truth—anxiety doesn’t define us. It’s a part of the journey, not the destination.

    it’s been a year, I struggled with the weight of anxious thoughts. The racing heart, the restless nights, the constant overthinking—it felt like a never-ending cycle. But through trial and error, I found ways to manage it. Deep breathing exercises, journaling, and grounding techniques became my lifelines. I learned that acknowledging anxiety, rather than fighting it, was the first step toward healing.

    If you’re reading this and feeling overwhelmed, know that you’re not alone. Anxiety may be loud, but your strength is louder. Take it one step at a time, and remember—progress, no matter how small, is still progress